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2011-12-09T03:04:00.001-08:00

^_^

2011-04-04T13:16:00.000-07:00

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Big Huge smile :D

to "Alvin"

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2011-03-18T14:24:00.000-07:00

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what to break more ? ...

It is already two pieces of so many little pieces
Dont waste YOU fixing it.. you never saw it fine ... !!!

Just leave it !!!!

you might

break it "more"

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2011-02-27T13:40:00.000-08:00

Let me stop looking at myself and start looking
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2011-02-12T12:08:00.000-08:00

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ya rab
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2010-11-09T11:52:00.001-08:00

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2010-11-01T11:06:00.000-07:00

sometimes, ... It just pulls you out of your world ..
into that very different world where you breath in

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EAH rule

2010-10-20T10:47:00.000-07:00

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I keep reminding myself with the quote “Expectations always hurt” . . . but I keep excepting things from others... I mean how I can live with someone without even putting a basic list of minimum required expectations as part of the relationship . . . I tried to program my mind not to expect anything from “close” people, but it is really hard..

I wish I won’t be hurt . . . !!!

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2010-09-25T13:55:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, I discovered that I forgot about this page totally. To the point It doesn't even come to my mind, as if it is not exist. I started my master and everything in my life is moving very fast. It is fast but some how sucking my energy out..I was extremely excited to live in the brand new apartments in Masdar City .. I loved how my class is so close and my advisor office is two steps away from my room.. I swear I was in love with edward and wished to live the twighlight saga .. Each coldness shiver and each blood drop made them drunk ... BUT not anymore :( .. I miss miss miss the sun in my room here .. It is always dark .. The plan is to build buildings close to prevent the sun to access the buildings and keep thm cooler .. Natural lights I LOVE YOu .. They should now do a psychological study and start doing what is the affect of such design in the production of the student .. Because from my point of view ,.. The absence of natural lights put me under depression ... !!!!!! This week was totally different ,. I went back home and I was full of happiness as if am escaping from a person who is making my life miserable ... Although am complaining now and it is my first time to complain, yet I wanna continue studying in that place .. Because I know I can do this .. I CAN and I WILL inshalla ... :)

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les miserable

2010-09-06T07:55:00.001-07:00

I told my friend I can't wait to see " les miserable" the movie ., she replied ., u gurl can't see ur life is so perfect .. U can't stop urself spice it with some tears

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ramadan is leavin

2010-09-02T04:43:00.000-07:00

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I started brain storming and i had two ideas.. Believe me if you have my personality you will fall in love with those two ideas.. First one I got it from one of the blogs I follow which is a desert table.. the desert table can be done in different shapes and different designs for different parties’ themes… I love love love the way the specialized people arrange the different sweets and candies along with drinks and chocolate fountain.. of course you can be open and add all what comes in your mind here are some of the tables would for :
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The second idea came into my mind when I went to the bazaar here in AlAin.. They had a shop that specialized in decorating parties. They have huge balloons that stuffed with teddy bears and chocolates and of course “Manfoo5at” full of air… can you imagine if I stuff them with chocolate and teddy bears as well as money XD … believe me the babies will go crazy when we will poke the balloon and all the money will start flying everywhere of course with the chocolate and the other stuff..

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The First idea already canceled coz our house in my hometown is under maintenance so my MOM was like you can do it for the next eid so your chocolate won’t melt down and of course you will have better options for the place of the table and so on…
The Second will be done inshalla .. bss ana 7ady will put Tens .. and will ask workin people if they will donate 100s and 500s as the big prize hehehehe
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Eid Preperation

2010-08-25T04:19:00.000-07:00

I was planning to have do sth new and different for my family in the day of Eid. I thought of doing a card, then I was like whatever I don’t think they will bother to look at it while everyone else is giving edia ( money) heheheh xD … Then I started searching the internet and I found some cool wrapped chocolate.. I really want to do sth very unique and original. DO you have any ideas?

2010-08-20T07:26:00.000-07:00

Mom .., I love you!

a post from my archive

2010-08-19T07:09:00.000-07:00

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small pieces of the memories remind me to
my fav part of my life
When everything was wonderful
all the problems are so simple
the happiness is so true
no complicated thoughts..
only so much colorful dreams
with elmo in sesame street

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A sock hanged on my door !

2010-08-16T15:59:00.000-07:00

Every time I come back from university, the first thing I do is squeezing that sock to check if I got a private letter ... They came up with this idea to tell each other what is in each other’s hearts .. Knowing what others honestly thinking about you open your eyes and makes u know yourself better.. I have been thinking a lot about me myself... What am I good at? What Nona’s worse fear? And if there is time to change what am I going to change? Yes am very good in making friends, yet am very bad in keeping them... Dear friend Iqbal you are right I’m very bad in “keeping in touch”. I SHOULD WIN A PRIZE FOR THAT!! I forgive people very easily and I do give hundred chances (except for liars), yet I just can’t face people I hurt or seek their forgiveness, I don’t consider anyone not deserving the SORRY, yet it is cowardliness.... I’m good in learning, yet I usually don’t read the instruction carefully which makes me fall in stupid mistakes .. I’m very good at pretending strength while actually am build in a very breakable base.. I m expert in talking and arguing using txts, yet very quite in the face to face arguments !!
I swear I imagined myself with 100 different personalities. yet my real me always WÌN !!
P.S : Thank you dear sock for telling me the truth

2010-08-13T16:56:00.000-07:00

من بين النّاس

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2010-08-10T15:22:00.000-07:00

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owch!

2010-08-07T12:19:00.000-07:00

Memory loss
I woke up today and I started thinking!! Who am I ? a piece of my mind is truly eaten ( Who ate it ? ) or STOLEN!!! . OR maybe because I used to miss my breakfast in the last few months.. of course you heard that you brain cells died whenever u skip a breakfast .. I must be skippin a lot then  … I asked one of my friends .. What I was good at ? and my friend was like “ are u askin me or this is a memory loss condition !!!” … My friend eventually replied and said Photography, Painting, writing , way of thinkin and a cute voice heheheh … but I was wondering what am I good at ? a thing that no one knows about yet, even me ! I must have something that I did not discover about myself yet !!!

Online Shopping
I promised to do this section for Jory .., Yaap I was into online shopping in a very strange way .. I was addicted till I became expert and have 100s of websites in my favorite.. so let’s start listing my best of best :

Etsy.com

It is an online e-shopping website that contains more than 17,000 shops. People sell vintage stuff and they sell handmade... How unique!! I love how I can get original stuff that comes directly from the craftsman. I can also order customized products in case I want to give it as a gift.
Some of my fav shops:

click here these are soaps WoW!!!!!!! i CAN EAT ALL OF EM xD...

click here

click here

Lush.com
A bath and body works shop. They only have a branch in Saudi Arabia which was disappointing. They have extremely cute stuff and I was telling everyone goin to KSA this summer to bring me stuff from there shop. I wish they consider Dubai there next opening branch ( If you know if they had already one here in UAE ..,, do me a favor and tell me )

Shopie Closet

A shop in Dubai that I discovered recently. They sell jewelry and accessories that is being seen in the red carpet, celebrities and gossip girls show. Girls, u r gonna love each piece .. !!

Ramadan Kareem

I wish you all ramadan kareem and for Ramadan inshalla all of my routine will be changed from the root =)

entry l3yoon al6ab3 al7sheem

2010-07-30T06:33:00.000-07:00

I was tryin to update my blog since forever.. I want to start blogging with a totally different style. I even thought of doing another blog but I think this one is already know by some good friends that I don want to lose .. I will start my Master study in September which will be a new era ^_^ with new friends and new people. I’m truly bad in keep contacting my old friends. I just find it extremely hard. I’m not a big fan of talking on the phone yet I can txt ppl back forever… Blackberry was a bless for me.. I keep contact my friend with no need to contact them .. I mean everyone knows about everyone with no need to talk to them for one hour to know about them and what they are doing …

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I started seriously thinking about a bunch of habits I gained from somewhere and they are extremely annoying. I’m trying so badly now to stop spending my time on Youtube. I just discovered that I’m addicted to watch ppl who are doing Vlogs in Youtube.. Yesterday before I wanted to sleep and I spent 3 hours on the bed listening to ppl talking in my head… I promised myself to stop goin to youTube.. and I talked to my sisters to unplug the internet device if they saw me on youTube.. It worked very well yesterday and I spent one hour only on checking my email and searching for some information.
If anyone is getting addicted to something in the summer let me know ?

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2010-05-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

Pushing the pain away.., believing in something that pulls you toward the pain again and again. Is it hard to move on and be selfish for once ?.. I just can’t understand how people loose things without even giving an effort not to lose them.. If you are not giving all what you have to keep the things you love, you will not feel bad to lose them. And if you do not feel bad to loose sth, it means you were just not giving all what you got to keep them.

I miss all my friends .. me and U !

=)

2010-03-13T13:21:00.000-08:00

I love to be here
I really do
but leaving
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2010-03-10T02:31:00.000-08:00

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People tend to stick with their beliefs and die rather than give up and try to figure out a new starting. I keep reciting this sentence in my mind so I gain the courage to start over. BUT, seriously if you really love what you have and you really believe on it WHAT makes you give up so easily? YES YES YES .., it is consuming me and I feel in my gut that it is goin to kill me one day. I am being harsh to myself more than any other time in my life and it might be the last time. Ya rab, give me the strength !

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soon

2010-03-01T11:48:00.001-08:00

coming soon ...!

betta ...,

2010-01-02T06:40:00.000-08:00

I’m trying to move out of my bed.., since all what I do is coughing or sleeping “ GOD, I sound very bad” .., I’m feeling betta today and yesterday.. I got a special order from a friend . She wants to give her other friend a special gift on her birthday. I got all excited and started working.. In addition, I’m preparing my papers for the pre- master in MASDAR institute. I just hope that they will accept me “ NOT becoz I’m not good enough, but I’m worried that it is not the thing I want to do” … when I was on my bed , I took advantage of setting alone and started thinking of the things I want to do, and the things I want to get rid of. It was the perfect timing to plan for the New Year.

I want:

1- To start the Master.

2- Receiving a recognition reward in any filed I’m interested in.

3- Travel to Japan or china.

4- Get a driving license “a wish”.

5- Expand “ Nonalita” Brand.

6- Have more friends.

7- In progress

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I don’t want:

1- To get hurt.

2- To hurt anyone.

3- To lose friends.

4- To cry

5- To be a friend of guys “boys” in work, study on any place in the planet or outside the planet.

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sick

2009-12-31T14:16:00.000-08:00

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Hey guys,

Yup I'm sick.., I dun mean am sick of you guys ;)
But am literally sick .. مريضة

Ay 7ad shal b5a6ra or think I hurted him/her one day .. Ana sorry.., believe me am a good person., but too good is causing me lots of problems and disrespect ..

Love you all

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2009-12-28T01:38:00.000-08:00

I had no idea how to start writing here. I may have lot of stuff to talk about and I might did nothing to talk about. Recently I started my own small business NONALITA DESIGN STUDIO, a small graphic studio. I have started with doing one piece hand painted t-shirts. I got the idea when I was doing a couple t-shirts for my friend and myself. I have so many plans and ideas, but for the recent time I’m only working on t-shirts. I got a lot of orders in past couple weeks. Thank you my family, cochi, friends specially Qeen San for the support

In the past few weeks I was writing in a different place. I did some Blackberry blogging since I was not online for so long.. and here some of what I wrote:

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Things that you don't want are always sticking to u.., attracted to u as if u have a magnet that pulls all of em toward you.., but when it comes to the things you really love you just loose the control and u become loaded with the opposite sign and again that inner magnet push them away.. I'm just wondering is this all happening because of the person himself.. I mean do I really do not understand myself when it comes to the things I love so I do screw everything.. But why the things that I hate keeps attracted to me in a very weird way ?

-- nada, 22nd of Nov

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I used to have diffeculty in ending up any kind of relationships in a rude way.., but what is the best way to get rid of some ugly hearts, rude, lier people from your list.. What if you keep kicking them outside your world but they still digging holes and making traps to make you feel weaker .. Do you use their own weapon .. Or you just pretend that you don't see them and avoid the traps somehow.. I have been told that the chess is not my game.. I dun think, I don't have patient and I don't react quitly .., how the hell will you deal with such jerks using the rules of the chess game.. They are a desies that affects me, my family and my surroundin friends. Yaa rab get them away from my road .., يَــــا رَبّ

-- nada , 23rd of Nov

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So weird how good feelings make it harder to express yourself.., when you are so sad, the words comes out of your mind so easily .. The pain inside you move that spot in your mind where it generates the most powerful and effective words ever.., when you are happy :d your mind goes blank and you prefer to smile and tear up rather than express verbaly.. I am happy today more than any of my previous days during the past 3 months.. Thanx to the ppl who stood up for nona,.. And who were patiant with me .. Love n hugs

-- nada, 24th of Nov

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2009-10-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

I have met my friend today and it was awesome. I know it is a silly way to start my post, but I don’t care. It is silly but it was the best thing I have done in my whole sleepy break. You know I just realize there is no old Nona or new Nona . It is a waste of time to try to bring back my old me that is actually doesn’t disappear but I am roaming around her and afraid to move on. Deal with it guys, everyone is changeable and the best thing when you make your new you works for your good. Believe me, it is just another copy of yourself but either better one that can be improved and improved or a corrupted one that can be fixed so easily by ONLY you. Keep learning from yourself, and don’t waste yourself learning from other coz there is no way you can feel others’ mistakes as you can feel yourself. The slaps hurt you, so it will definitely affect you.

Final word: BE IN LOVE, with yourself.

Love,
Nona

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2009-10-21T13:16:00.000-07:00

I love to be close to people to understand more and more and get the clearer image ever, but have you ever tried to go up way to the sky to look in every single detail that you miss from the total image. You might feel so confused of someone’s personality, way of thinking or even the way they react, just go away till you reach a point where u can see that person as a whole.

BUT, be careful.. if you go too way far, you ,might lose him/her.

unsocial life

2009-10-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

Do you realize sometime how close god is? I have been in the world for 23 years now, yet my experience is much less than couple of years. I consider myself weak in everything; I have shortage of knowledge in most of the important things that affect my main life line. I admit that I have been taking decisions that sooner or later make me feel HOW social illiterate I am. YES, I have a big problem with my life. I am good enough to study, draw or even sing BUT when it comes to people and how to deal with those human being I GET LOST….!

Sometimes I just wonder.., why I get what I want !! … you might ask what do I exactly mean.. I started my post by a question, and am really feeling how god is showing me how to be stronger and take my decision based on what I know not by what I do not know. You might not believe it, but whenever I wish to do sth that thing happens to me. It could take time to happen but it happens eventually. And you know how it feels when you really wish for sth that you thought it will be the best for you and it will match the way you think but because you have never done it or you have never experienced it IT IS THE PREFECT EVER! But yaaaaah … the truth is when you explore it.., get to know it.., your mind goes BANGGGG, hello this is a different world ! I have learned that the lack of information is a total weakness… but, unfortunately in the social life you have to get into troubles in order to learn .. In the last few months I have noticed how socially weak I am.. but it doesn’t mean that I don’t have friends and so on, but I do not communicate as required to maintain the relationships.. I started thinking of the reason that makes me end up as a lonely zombie … I have no idea what makes me avoid people or not feeling like talking, chatting and express myself. The less, direct communication, the better. You can find me so open talking on the blog, less open in MSN ( which I do not have anymore), less and less phone calls and NO face – to – face. Go back to the main point, Lately one of the things that I really wish happened to me and I figured out hard to deal with it although It happened exactly like what I wished for. It was kinda shockin, but I’m learning!

latest work:

Hugs
Nona

hold ma hand

2009-10-10T05:02:00.000-07:00

It seems that I’m not a good actress. Happiness never comes with pretending. Try to act with me, Hold my hands and try to make me believe, that I’m HAPPY.

Shorty

2009-10-08T08:25:00.000-07:00

" My fav "

zayed "Shorty" bro
2 years old
place: AlAin Club

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2009-10-07T10:58:00.000-07:00

I'm writing this with my small bb machine.. Try to let the flood of thoughts comes out so easily since the bright screen of the laptop keeps blocking my emotions out... U would probably wondering why I'm usually confused, tragedian and so sensitive.. I have noticed that when I'm happy and when I write about happy or funny stuff .. It sounds BORING !!! I do have loads of funny, happy and crazy moments BUT I just can't express it on the right way !! Haven't u noticed that???. I went away when Eid ( good memory) came hehehehe .. it was really a strong point to prove my analysis ... Yup, I'm analyzing my weird me .. Coz I just can't tolerate giving others that huge amount of sadness and confusions about my status :D .. Wallah, I even got the best birthday gifts ever this year... I COULD show u my smiles .. It would be more charming :D ... 5ala9 .. I will try to force myself to have two parts on my entry ... Positive and negative ... SOUNDs cool huh ?!! ...

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ahhhhh

2009-10-03T07:50:00.000-07:00

I just felt that I need to write my feeling so desperately. I wanna know how the hell people can take a life decision. All the doors where closed, and I don’t have a clue if this is what I want. What If while you were taking a decision and something from the middle of nowhere falls into your head and just wake you up. This thing is the most beautiful combination of pain, love, sweetness and harshness. Walking with you through the life path in a harmony that you have never experienced. You feel yourself, your craziness, your childish you. Will you let it go and continue what you have made your mind for? Will you hurt yourself for the sake of others satisfaction, or will follow your heart at least once! Please FORGIVE ME, but I need to be me more than anything else

P.S: ( empty note)

Im Ok

2009-09-03T20:16:00.000-07:00

I know everyone is so worried.., But I'm sorry I will be away for awhile and will try to come back with better me.. I just need to be alone =)

yaaaa It is just a blank me who doesnt have anything to say ...!!!

LOVE,
Nona

After a Blank ...... !

2009-08-09T17:48:00.000-07:00

I decided to record everything…, even the silly childish mistakes … It was soo funny when I discovered that my figure was insisting to post sth, BREAK the silence and not leaving my diary empty for so long. I came back finding Syaf commenting on a one empty line post.. I guess am gonna leave it as a chat room If you guys wanna ask questions :P… Go and post on that Empty post …..!!

4:21 am , Aug 10th 2009:
Listening to : Night silence..!!
Status: sleepy

I really need to meet someone different. Someone who can understand how my complicated mind works.. Actually sometimes I give up and I ask for less demand. At least someone who knows how to deal with this mind… I totally believe that being a professional in dealing with something complex doesn’t need to understand every single bit about it... you need to catch the main key points. I do go in this stupid cycle where you meet someone.. You first prioritize him/her …, then as soon as you discover how miserable their life turned to Becoz of only Me..,, you just cover your face with the huge coffee cup you are holding in your hand ..,, and say “Nice to meet you”!
Miss you my friends =)

I saw some of my old digital works and I got soooo excited to do some new stuff., I started doing some cards that represent a series called “I have a confession….!!!”. It talks about any human's hearts diseases that should be fought because of its side effect of the personality of the person.., people do not admit that they are suffering from those diseases. I started with two example which are ego and snpooin. I wish u will like them ..... they are done today…, the rest are coming soon..!!!
If you have suggestion of some heart diseases tell me....

Some different stuffs from my studio

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Open chat room =)

2009-07-29T17:11:00.001-07:00

Summer school and yellow pages ~ 5

2009-07-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

I’m already sick of the summer and the yellow color. I entered in a ridicules routine that kills every single excitement in your cells. I was trying to break it by goin to the cinema and ended up watching Ice Age 3 for the sake of the children satisfaction. It was the first movie to watch during summer CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!!....

I may need to mention that my final will be on Sunday which will end up my bachelor officially,…… COOL !!! I was begging tota to shoot her but she was soooooooooo refusing it saying that she hates my photo shoots but extremely loving my Moms shoots O_o..!!!!

I’m trying now to convince her again to take some photos …. Coming back with success or failure. BRB

BACK !!!

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(2) since you were expecting her face to come into the photos, then here you go

I wanted to share you this place since soo long, but I keep forgetting. It is an online shop for more than 1 million crafters. They create their own stuff and they do it soooo creatively and sell it online. I do spend more than 6 hours browsing and being amazed with their talents. Below is some of my fav groups :

Etsy :: Have Fun

Yellow Pages of Summer School ~ 3,4

2009-07-16T02:51:00.000-07:00

The third and fourth weeks passed without posting any entries. I had lods of stuff to tell you but as soon as the weekend started all the things vanish. Anyway, it is now the end of the fourth week, so there is no way to remember anything. I have been asked a lot about my summer school and how is it. It is fun and not fun, try to be active, but as soon as you go out and you got hit by the sun your fuel evaporates, and lose the enthusiasm. I was reading a lot about the effect of the strong sun rays on your health, body and your activities. I have discovered that the extreme hot weather has substantial impact on mortality. Bsm allah 3lainah. But it vary depend on the sex, race and age. Air conditioning and frequent exercising are reasons to low the risk.

Now, let’s move to new salfah. Salfaaat al “Mba3ing” that is becoming sooo famous. He/She is keep emba3ing in our chat boxes till she/he became so famous and dare to open a new blog. I’m one of the people who consider themselves friends with Mr.Mba3 or Ms.Mba3. I was doing my investigation to collect any facts related to this covered cute character. So am announcing here that as soon as I meet him/her am going to reveal the secret. FACE to Face hehehe

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I have started doing a triptich-three which is a painting that contains three pieces, but I did not feel like completing it now. The idea of the painting will be almost like the picture above.. but of course it will contains more details.

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I was reading a book called “ The history of dress”. I’m doing my summer course presentation about the dress across cultures. It is kinda interesting and sooooooooo much inspiring. As soon as I open the book I start drawing and painting.
I have done this painting with watercolors ( am a beginner with water colors). I usually work with acrylic. The dresses of the girls inspired from fabrics and patterns of the southwest Indian American.

Whisper: it is more than a whisper; it is a scream from my deepest heart.

Yellow Pages of Summer School ~ 2

2009-07-02T14:20:00.000-07:00

Yellow pages seem to be burnt because of the too way hot weather. I started my days with complaining again and again about not having a powerful sunscreen that can deal with our sun. My heart was burnt with betrayal, eyes with salty tears and my mind with all kind of confusions. I have torn that black page from my summer yellow pages to continue my sunny days with a smile.., putting the pain screen on my heart so it won’t be hurt anymore.., but the rough edge of the black page will remain forever to remind me and ONLY me of a nightmare called trust…….!

On Tuesday June 30th 2009: Full Black page

On Wednesday July 1st 2009: the class started with the fire alarm. We were almost begging the doctor to save our lives O_o. I wish we were in U.S, we could at least run out of the building to save our lives. I didn’t know that the class that begun with an alarm ended up with the doctor scolding me coz I was not being attention to him … I was taking notes for good sake !!!! The funny thing that I wasn’t wearing my glasses … He shouted on my face and actually I wasn’t sure who is the hell he is looking at .. I looked on my right side.., then looked to the girl behind me .. He screamed again “YOU KNOW THAT AM TALKING TO YOU ! ” :S
P.S : read the signs during the day.. Do you believe in signs ?

Me and Tota trying to have fun inside home, since the weather outside is killing. We made a Mask and took some shots.

designs & photographs by nonalita

Yellow Pages of Summer School ~ 1

2009-06-27T04:17:00.000-07:00

It is the last day of the first week, that I have started it with an awful feeling, depression and lots of sarcastic laughs. I woke up on Sunday and I was feeling so screwed because while I was sleeping I have decided not to go school that day. I wasn’t feeling that I was in de mood to start the new summer course. I have spent only one week vacation preparing my aunt wedding, which is totally unfair not to have FUN. As u know, it is “My” summer and I set my own roles so I wanted one more day off (Trying to find an excuse). Sunday 21st of June was passed with nothing interesting O_×

Monday 22nd of June, I was fully prepared to attend the class and extremely excited. Woke up at 8:30 am, get prepared and head off toward the University. I was almost 99.99% sure that my class in the middle of nowhere “Building 40”. I reached the place where building 41 and 42 and 39 is there, but wait WHERE THE HELL building 40 has gone? I was running crazy trying to find it, fighting my other me (little me that looks like me but with wings) that the building number is 40….AHHHH I have to call for help. Me: 911 please check my schedule I’m lost!!! 911: a building called activity, class 40

Ooo Em Gee, It is really obvious that I’m not on the mode to come to the University again. I started running toward the class. It took me about 3 minutes although usually it takes more than 7 minutes. I remember that the last day I was running “real one not the UAE girlz fake one” when I was in U.S. I entered the class Optimistic with a smile. He “the professor” with a bigger smile : law sama7ti ta3li bokra alsa3a 10:00 ( Please come back tomorrow at 10:00). I said In Sha Alla and sat on my place. He repeated it and I said again In Sha Allah, and everyone started laughing. I was so damn innocent to realize that he was actually kicking me out… !!!!! to be sure I asked him: should I go out out. He said with proud YES.

10:30 AM, I was setting on star bucks with all kind of depression expressions on my face drinking water with ice cubes ( this is a sign that am feeling so depressed).

with <3

2009-06-14T14:46:00.000-07:00

Big huge back will be more than enough to tell you that AM DONE =D !!!! It was a very long journey …, for some reason I felt that It was longer than my school journey... I’m almost done… one more summer course " it is an elective" so no more java exams, UML diagrams and no more ERDs… a flood of ideas came to my mind during the exam period and they fade away as soon as am done with all the finals hehehe… Now I just wanna feel soooooooo relaxed.., do all kind of boring stuff .., do all kind of stupid stuff.., do shopping day and night.., I wanna start eating healthy food.., sleeping early.., waking up early and going to the gym … Sounds cool huh ? I just missed watching TV till the point of watching the movie twice (first show and the repeated one).. I was very glad when the dean came to our final exam to say goodbye and said that we have to keep the hard work and keep learning and do not waste our time watching TV and stuff …, I do respect his point and I do encourage the long life learning, but on that moment I just wanted to rephrase his words and say do all kind of things that you miss, but don’t forget that the knowledge is the thing that will last for you..!!!!!

I started looking to the world as a baby who is very new to the terminologies of living…, sometimes I feel that being between the university walls is much safer.., so one of my plans is going back to the Uni.., I’m looking for excuses such as being the representative of the Alumni Association, research assistant etc just to be there again and again and again. I might be afraid of missing the University more than being afraid of the outside world, or maybe I do love that routine that I was complaining about almost every day. Then I realized that going back to it won’t bring the memories back. University is not a building where you attend classes, meet professor and do projects. University is friends, bunch of friends O_× who is shaping your life, style, attitude and the wau of thnkling . Being there without them will just make it worse !!!!

Anyway I wanted to share something that truly made me happy. I know that discovered it sooooo late, but I have only one excuse “I was busy”. My macro photo was one of the best macro pix in deviantart last year 2008.

The link: best of 2008!

My page : click here

with

void ( String talkin) : return Nothing

2009-06-08T14:30:00.000-07:00

Nothing much

wanted to share some old photos from the archive

sick of finals

2009-06-05T13:23:00.000-07:00

Life is trying to let me down each time I do believe that it will be better. I have tried to look for the source of strength where I can go back to each time I feel weak. They just don’t work all the time. I do believe that the only strength source that you can count on all the time is yourself. You just need to hold it inside you and believe that the only one who can change the facts is yourself. Making mistakes are part of the human nature, but repeating the same mistake is a fool nature. Trying to be stronger with fool nature won’t work; it will just make you lose the belief in yourself. Whoever thinks that I have done a mistake and hurt him/her, raise your hand high. I would like to APOLOGIES. Being forgiven is the start point to strength the relationship with self. I don’t trust the time, and I do not know when my life will flash before my eyes [ad queen]…. Azza May Allah Rest your Soul in peace

2009-06-03T03:58:00.000-07:00

I thought It is easy to stand back on my feet

2009-05-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

I made my own little cartoonish world.., where I am the hereon who is fighting the devils and waiting for the hero to come and help me coz I got sick of playing this role, but what if the hero is so dumb and I can’t count on him. Should I just continue with my exhaustive role or quit and let him try his best and ruin the whole story? I think it is my mistake because I did not stick with the Cinderella story where I am a poor girl who end up living as princesses happily ever after ... Humenaide issues

Nonalita image, words

Letters with tears

2009-05-29T01:59:00.001-07:00

Letters, traditional letters are the most classical way to contact people. I do prefer txting you rather than call and talk. Words just stay there and don’t fade away as the talk does. Covering the letter with envelop that encloses your old photo , will make the memories so much valuable. A letter with a red lipstick kiss will make it full of love and a letter with drops of your tears that fade the litters will make the pain flood out of the words.

Dear Mom,

It has been so long since I set with you and chat on stupid stuff, since I cried because you bought something to my sis and you forgot about me, since I start nagging your head with my demands, since I complain from the little amount of love you show me. I missed you although you are around me all the time, supporting me in every single step. I’m sorry in getting you into troubles with everyone else. I’m sorry for forcing you accepting the stupid mood I am in right now. I love you when you were on my side and everyone else decided not to tolerate my attitude anymore. I LOVE YOU
MOM!

P.S: thank you for the posters hanged on my collage walls, as well as the flowers stand in front of my collage door, I thought I was forgotten.

Dear Dad,

For a while I thought you really do not care about what I am doing on my study. I love you dad, but you are soo good in hiding your emotions. My mom told me when you were talking about me and how proud you are. Walla I wish you say fdaitch in front me. Believe me it would make difference. I knew you really care when you saw me crying, It was touching when you saw me crying last time and you started reciting qua’an to calm me down. I did felt so much better. I love the hidden way to take care of me.

P.S: Don’t forget my graduation gift; I want to stay with you as much as possible. *Don’t let me get married,hehehehe*

Dear Grandma Maryam,

I always believed that you are little bit harsh, you are so hard to deal with and it takes so long to make you show your love. Being away from you, showed me that even if I don’t care about being around and asking about you, your heath and your life doesn’t made you forget your dearest granddaughter. Your prayers and dua’a always helped me through my life journey.

P.S: I promise I will make you hate my existence, coming back soon.

Dear Grandma Shikha,

Honestly, I miss your food like hell but I missed you more. Every time you hear my voice and you tear up, makes me feel awful and how harsh I am. I’m sorry for choosing to be far. I do promise you to come back every time I talk to you, and I promise you again to come back.

P.S : I have only one concern, my WIEGHT!

Dear Noura,

It just happened to be far in on of your most important moments in your life. Do you remember my promise, when I told you this will happen? I promised you and it happened so I thought it is the time to take care of myself. I knew it was a selfish way to take care of my life, but believe me you are the only one who I need to see and talk with, can’t explain on a piece of paper.

P.S: you are my childhood friend, as well as my aunt.

Dear Nany,

Do we have the same attitude with being away from others? I think we are the same and I know that I miss you as much as you do. I miss the days when were so close to each others, when me, you and Noura doesn’t spend a single moment away from each other. I’m totally freaked out of coming back, and not founding everything as it used to be. You are leaving us soon as well as Noura!

P.S : promise not to make it worse!

Dear ‘3zal,

Being the youngest and the wisest is just so hard. I may need to admit that you are teaching me a lot of things that I really need in my social life. You do listen to my nonsense words continuously without even complaining. I do listen to your stupid thoughts sometimes, but I enjoy it. I wish you will just go through on “whatever” is happening to you now so perfectly and end up living happily ever after.

P.S: Thank you for what you did with Mom, you are 70% of my family hehehehe.

Dear Tota,

I’m including you after my family immediately because you were my family for so long. You have been my sister for the past 5 years. You knew everything about every single thing in my life. I just adore you, and I know that I hurt you several times, but believe me I don’t mean to hurt “myself”. I will always be with you in all your happy, sad or even stupid moments. You did care about me when I was in U.S more than my family, you just proved how much friendship means in life. I love you Tota and wish all your dreams will come true.

P.S : Your feelings = my feelings, there is no way to hurt you anymore.

Dear San,

I used to believe that there is no way that you can find a person who is totally identical to you. It was shocking each time we think the same, we reach the same conclusions and when we name the variables “in programming” exactly the same. You just made my life simple; I don’t need to talk to make you understand. I don’t even need to show my reaction toward any situation coz your reaction is exactly the same. Don’t walk away from our friendship no matter what. I’m afraid because you are not around lately.

P.S: I missed you, come back san!

Dear senior team,

I spent my best moments with you guys. It was the worst and best semester ever. I do not forget how the hell we went through our final presentation. I thought it was a nightmare. It was so damn awful, BUT we made it to the round one. I won’t forget how we were setting in 1013 class and crying, wrapping said gift. We started 3 and end up 6 member on the team, two new born babies, Sheikha and Sultan joined us. I love you and I love your babies more.

P.S: Let’s rock round one judges!

Dear Shant,

Life is not only living for the moment, life is more than that! Act smart and don’t hurt anyone in your game. Try to win the round with less number of victims. Play faster coz it is just a matter of time.

P.S: You are such an idiot!

Dear Dean,

Standing alone between the crowed, observing the girls smiling, crying and cheering each other was the most touchable moment in our graduation party. You looked like a dad of 200 girls. I have spent my last 5 years in CIT and never saw a professor proud of his students as you did. You mentioned it again in our poster session, you said we are your little children which makes me assure what I have seen in your eyes, in class of 2009 graduation.

P.S : am leaving soon, yet I know that no one will take care of the new
generation as you did.

Dear Said Alnaffar,

I was always wondering how you gained all this popularity. I have spent these four wonderful months under your supervision and enjoyed how you refused to supervise me rather than advise me. Your popularity came from being teacher as well as elder brother as well as a close friend. You taught me how to stand on the stage, be clam, talk slowly and blow all the audience away. You taught me how to stand in this life and treat it as a big theater where all of us actors and actress.

P.S: I always wanted to be your student!

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2009-05-24T06:36:00.000-07:00

excuse moi

2009-05-16T11:19:00.000-07:00

I do Trust U

2009-05-15T14:35:00.000-07:00

dedicated to Family

♥

2009-05-14T13:30:00.000-07:00

am still at the beginingand am excited to discover how worse it is gonna be

Dear Diary

2009-05-13T12:30:00.000-07:00

Chapter 1:
Running to the class late..,, it is my first time to walk till the gate of *hostel 4* in one minutes only Yessss … suddenly , one of my non close friends called me.. said: Nona THANK GOD am not the only late student.. I looked at her.. Smiled then I slowed down.. Reached the class.. No one started yet ….!!!!

Lesson: Trying to catch up what you missed by running and hurrying up doesn’t always end up the same way you wanted.. In some points in your life you have to slow down.. it will end up safely …!!!

Chapter 2:
Get into my second class.., I have an exam.., keep thinking.. Will I be flunking on this too.. as a matter of fact it seems that I divorced the luck lately.. Mamoon was saying there are two versions of the exam.. I was *with hands UP* YA RAB I wanna be Lucky!!!! GOT the easier Version *YESssss* :D

Lesson: Isn’t it a waste of me to feel SAD and BAD then getting MAD hehehe – Quote from Shant

Chapter 3:
Goin back home getting ready for the “Thank U Party” ..,, Elect a new president and have a new vice president.. wasn’t feeling good.. actually I was struggling in pain! Trying to fake the smile .. showing my teeth :D ..,, but keeps goin back like eeeeeeee :( … Uhhhh… Got some comments that it shows on my face :S

Lesson: Don’t try to fake a smile ..,, your muscles will get tired and stop responding anymore… !!!!

Chapter 4:
Wear masks..,, laugh and dance.. Have FUN !!

Lesson: Having fun doesn’t require to be real

turtles cant live alone.. and I cant

Scolding

2009-05-11T17:41:00.000-07:00

Purple … red feelings..whatever kind of feelings..Don’t dare to play with others feelingsskrew you selfish people (o")

2009-05-10T11:31:00.001-07:00

we will fly soon..,, flying to the nowhere

"as long as they are togather, That "Nowhere" will
become "Somewhere" --Ai

nothing much

I just wanna talk

2009-05-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

I really want to feel the warm of the shot..,, but yaa It is already 39 C here in UAE .. GOD I don’t even know how the summer course will pass YA I HAVE ONE MORE CULTURE COURSE TO GO O_o .. I love winter, but hate cold weather (e7lfi)... The best feeling ever when you feel cold and u r setting in front of the heater to get some warm... I’m under a huge pressure due to the submissions, projects and senior, yet I have this strange feeling toward writing … not photography which is wired. I do use my old shots in my current entries. Thank god that I started sharing my stuff with others. They are lying on my external since ages. Have tens of movies, thousands of images and designs. That will be posted soon !

My Blue pinkish Collection

2009-05-07T07:55:00.000-07:00

It is just a matter of time to open that blue door and jump into that dreamy world. One more step in order to get into a whole different phase of my life. What really makes me so excited is the vagueness of the future. The cloudy way where I will smile to meet new friends, cry to leave close friends, learn, discover and continue walking without a reason. Life deserves to be exciting. It’s worth a try.

The best feeling when you wake up in the morning is to be responsible totake
care of someone, wake up knowing that you are living because of someone, knowing
that your life depend of the life of someone -- By Nonalita to SoOomz, NoNo and all Moms in the world ..,, مبروك علينا شيخة و سلطان

2009-05-06T14:51:00.000-07:00

I have made a decision..!! How easy to say it. It is just torturing when I’m in a critical situation and I do not know where each path leads. Should I just do nothing and ignore it, yet even that is a decision. What if that path is holding your bright future, but the other one holding your brighter future. Will I be able to forget the decision whether leads to the best or to the worse? It is hard to decide my future, my life..,, DON’T make it worse and make me decide your own life..,, am not a good player on this game.. Don’t bet on my choice.. I might lose it..,, Its fine to lose mine, but not putting yours on the risk edge.

“I hate to see things done by halves. If it be right, do it boldly,--if it be
wrong leave it undone.” -- Bernard Gilpin.
Thank you Bernard coz this is exactly describes me

Dedicated to bro M, San, '3zal, Shant and ME

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Happy May 6th

2009-05-06T04:24:00.000-07:00

happy for you to trun 24 although thats mean am truning 23 soon I wish you all the best in your lifemy lovely broMohammedhappy 6th of May

2009-05-03T13:01:00.000-07:00

No matter how hardly you think .. no matter how bad you feel.. in some point of your life.. it will happen.. Does it worth the TRY... What if it leads nowhere...? would it be a waste ?
I wanted so badly to write a new entry with a huge smile
But it seems
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Am holding a dead flower

Class 2009

will miss all of you

Tagged by Myself

2009-03-25T01:46:00.000-07:00

I’m tryin to write in my blog since so long, but something is stopping my words to flow. I have already 5 drafts in my posts box. The silence am livin is killin me. Sometime you just have to fight yourself not to go through any kind of stupid phases and end up lonely setting on the corner of your room. I missed myself more than anything, coz I’m missing u around me. I missed my camera, my paintin brush and my iTouch. I have tagged myself to TALK >_<. But there are nothing.

this picture done by a scanner

0% photoshop

H!M

2008-12-26T14:52:00.000-08:00

sometimes you just need to

imagin that your contacts

contains

h!m

sometimes you just need to

imagin that your inbox

full of msgs from

h!m

sometimes you just need to

imagin that you heart

belongs to only

h!m

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Noura : God bless you and make you live happily forever

with h!m

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the fuuniest msg i got this week

I just love you 3sh3sh

w yaaaa rab yrzgch h!m ^_^

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I just love you soooooooo much

dont worry u r soooooooo cute

and you will always be cute

watever you do with your hair

and watever you do with your

loooooooooook

^_^

dont hate me to put this here

:P

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p.s : no H!M .. am s!ngle hehehehe

walkin the path..holdin some letters

2008-12-23T14:16:00.000-08:00

I just got the point where I see my future is totally

fuzzy. I'm graduating soon and for some reason I just

feel that I'm kind of starting over O_o .. I didn't find the

right next step yet . The whole future is just out off

focus now.. I may need to get closer to figure out

what is the next step

letters

Lateifa Lolo:

enjoy the weddin sweetheart.. love you and gonna miss u..u are the first here.. btw u r one of the cutiest girl i have ever met

Tota:

Miss you like hell.. forgive me for being out of friendship O_o .. love you

Ahood:

sooooooo excited to attend ur wedding .^_^. and bite you kkkk

Asta Awasha:

I miss u u u u .. I love the way u r tryin to make our friendship survive :-P

Haifa FoFo:

I just love you and love your patient.. I'm sorry for not being able to help you in the DB

AD Queen:

Miss you granny .. you got 23 and u forgot about me O_O.. ma a7bch <<>

Amal :

U R S!mply Great

Wafa:

sweet always.. love your smile .. love the way u love me

San:

you were the lost friend who i found this semester.. Damn girl where were u in the last 3 years.. you supposed to be my friend since soooooooooooo looooooooooooooooooong

Swaidi:

I feel happy whenever I c u.. and I feel happier when i see your face ...CUTE >_<

everyday's 12:01

2008-11-16T10:37:00.000-08:00

Minutes are killing me
Days pass with freeze emotions
No feelings No tears No smiles
Tick..Tick..Tick
12:01am
One more day passed
WITHOUT
U
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our little global village

2008-11-15T13:17:00.001-08:00

alya is soo thirsty.. huging the water box mn al5a6r

trying to be away from the crowed

Japan =)

Syria =)

india =)

my place =)

sorry for not explaining

I dont have time >_<

u wanna be in TOP

2008-10-28T21:41:00.000-07:00

Location: Recreation Room - IT Building our lovely second home

Mood: Nervous

Reading: Database slides

My stupid laptop logged in the MSN.. I opened the window of the MSN to check who is online...... Actually I check my friends moods, news through their titles and subtitles in the MSN.. I saw this weird title " ".. I moved the mouse immediatly to check who is the hell is feeling just exactly how i feel. She may now be able to understand me more than anytime else. She was Angel EYE .. NO WAY .. She is always full of energy and have something to achieve. JUST LIKE WHAT HAPPENED TO U NONALITA !!!!!!!!!

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Miss~Nonalita: Hey Gurl

Angel Eye: Hey Nadooya

Miss~Nonalita: Where r u now ?

Angel Eye: Still in the Uni..!!

Miss~Nonalita: Do u want to Do sth Crazy?

Angel Eye: Like What O_o?

Miss~Nonalita: Just tell me yes

Angel Eye: What do u want to do..???!!!!

Miss~Nonalita: When will you finish your class ?

Angel Eye: at 5 pm

Miss~Nonalita: OKay Girl..,, will meet at 5 to pick you up ^_^
Angel Eye: O_o ......................!!!!

whoever lost his cat you will find it on the top of hafeet

we had fun

Title with a kiss

2008-10-25T07:13:00.000-07:00

Maybe because I'm during my midterms period... I have this strong feeling toward painting or drawing.. I have lots of ideas and am so excited to do them.. but as soon as I'm done with my midterms all of them will be vanished O_o.... I tried once to list them all in a piece of paper.. and by the end of my finals I was only caring about sleelpin heheheee..

One of the things I want to start learning is doing short animation movies.. Since I'm so in love with this thing and I started searching about the common tools needed and the best books and I have decided:

To learn 2D Animation
Having New Desktop or laptop

with 256+ MB of RAM / 20 GB Hard Drive/ Color Monitor (1024 X 768)

100+ GB Hard Drive
Wacom Graphics Tablet
using FlipBook Software

P.S: all this wont happen till the end of the semester ;-P ( this is just not to forget)

latest shot:

Happiness is like a kiss...you must share it to enjoy it.

K!ss to Mom
K!ss to Dad
K!ss to Rashid
K!ss to My family
K!ss to TOTA
K!ss to Ahood
K!ss to 3asta
K!ss to Haifa
K!ss to LoLo toffi
K!ss to Sal6oni weld nourooh =)

♥ with

2008-10-14T02:46:00.000-07:00

Whatever will happen I'm goin to accept it
I really wanna be kind of person who accepts
anything and continue the life without making
a flood with tears
:'(

What is really Funny.. I was and I still believe that I'm NOT HAPPY so,
I started reading happy with no reason
to get know how other people may look for the happiness

P.S: Nothing made me happier more than being soo close to GOD =)
Thanx Leel you told me sth yesterday brought me back to right track
Thanx AD Queen for Yesterday.. I felt you really cares Mwa7z
thanx Haifa for being patient with my strange attitudes

Todays List:People I Miss

ToTa " RainDrops"
grandMa
Ahoodi
3asta
Maha
Raul
Erin
ME

My Strange Mood

2008-10-09T17:55:00.000-07:00

Everyday is the same. I got tired of this routine. Wake up in the morning, go to University, attend classes and meetings, go back home, study finally sleep O_o. and the weekend reserved for the family visits :'-(. OMG whatever fun stuffs I do like participating in organizing events, photography and painting doesn't help to go out of this stupid mood, NOT AT ALL. Everyone thought shopping will diffenitly help me get rid of the depression I have. I was shoppin like I have never did ^_^. Actually I loved the concept of buying whatever you want and no one asking you not to do so =P, but still feel that am moving inside a maze. I'm really trying so hard to reach the level of piece where I can close my eyes and not thinking about anything.