unsocial life

Do you realize sometime how close god is? I have been in the world for 23 years now, yet my experience is much less than couple of years. I consider myself weak in everything; I have shortage of knowledge in most of the important things that affect my main life line. I admit that I have been taking decisions that sooner or later make me feel HOW social illiterate I am. YES, I have a big problem with my life. I am good enough to study, draw or even sing BUT when it comes to people and how to deal with those human being I GET LOST….!

Sometimes I just wonder.., why I get what I want !! … you might ask what do I exactly mean.. I started my post by a question, and am really feeling how god is showing me how to be stronger and take my decision based on what I know not by what I do not know. You might not believe it, but whenever I wish to do sth that thing happens to me. It could take time to happen but it happens eventually. And you know how it feels when you really wish for sth that you thought it will be the best for you and it will match the way you think but because you have never done it or you have never experienced it IT IS THE PREFECT EVER! But yaaaaah … the truth is when you explore it.., get to know it.., your mind goes BANGGGG, hello this is a different world ! I have learned that the lack of information is a total weakness… but, unfortunately in the social life you have to get into troubles in order to learn .. In the last few months I have noticed how socially weak I am.. but it doesn’t mean that I don’t have friends and so on, but I do not communicate as required to maintain the relationships.. I started thinking of the reason that makes me end up as a lonely zombie … I have no idea what makes me avoid people or not feeling like talking, chatting and express myself. The less, direct communication, the better. You can find me so open talking on the blog, less open in MSN ( which I do not have anymore), less and less phone calls and NO face – to – face. Go back to the main point, Lately one of the things that I really wish happened to me and I figured out hard to deal with it although It happened exactly like what I wished for. It was kinda shockin, but I’m learning!


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